fictional
country of Gondal<\/a>. It can be easily argued that
there was a huge amount of RPF within the oral
tradition, as people passed down stories about
folkloric legends such as Robin Hood, King Arthur, and
– yeah, I\u2019m going to go there –
Jesus). We know our lore and our mythology and our
terminology, and we study it as arduously as disciples
of any other body of text.<\/p>\n
Whilst I do stress that a lot of fanfiction out
there is non-sexual and non-romantic in content
(it\u2019s called gen
fic<\/a>, yo, look it up), there\u2019s an
inarguable trend towards sexytimes. I\u2019m all
down with that; I like a bit of story with my porn,
and I\u2019m not a very visual person, so fanfiction
is where I discovered a lot about myself and my own
sexuality. I think I started reading fanfiction when
I was about 13 or 14, and nowhere near, ahem,
\u201cactive\u201d. My first ever ship was Rupert
Giles\/Jenny Calendar. It was a while after that
until I discovered slash, although that discovery
was, frankly, inevitable \u2013 I had a bit of a
sweet-tooth for Harry\/Draco (Drarry, if you will).
Fanfiction was (and still is!) a safe space to
explore my own sexuality, and discover the
kaleidoscope of sexualities, genders and identities
that are out there. It was many years before
I\u2019d hear the name Judith Butler, or even hear
the slightest mention of \u2018queer theory\u2019,
but when I did, none of the ideas seemed
particularly new to me.<\/p>\n
Whilst there are plenty of male writers of
fanfiction (especially within the gaming community
– shout out to my little bro!) authorship is
overwhelmingly female, and I don\u2019t think that
that\u2019s a coincidence. Out in the real world,
it\u2019s difficult to own our own sexuality;
there\u2019s simply no room for shades of grey.
You\u2019re either frigid or a slut; you\u2019re
either straight or gay; your sexuality and identity
is whatever people perceive when they look at you.
But within the fanfiction community, away from the
patriarchal mainstream, we can discover and explore
how we feel about our own sexual and gender and
personal identity. That\u2019s something that I
think has had more effect on my life than anything
else. Through the medium of fandom, we can find out
who we are, and what we like, and how we feel, all
through just reading stories together. And then
hopefully – eventually – we get to write
our own story.<\/p>\n
This is people writing because they love it, for no
purpose other than writing for themselves and for
other people who they vaguely know on the internet.
It\u2019s done purely for the joy of the thing. And
it isn’t just about the fic itself; the fandom
community is the most genre-savvy, theory-aware,
innovative group of people I\u2019ve ever had the
pleasure to tangle with. This is a community alive
with discussion about narrative, metanarrative,
referentialism & self referentialism, literary
theory, gender and sexuality, social justice,
morality, pop culture and in-jokes. I\u2019d also
argue that it\u2019s an innately queer community; it
not only exists between the cracks, but thrives on
the cracks. And in a world where deconstruction and
theory are often frowned upon as “thinking
about things too much”, fandom is where I
found a home.<\/p>\n